i'm 19, have suffered with weight all my life pretty much.
for a while my parents were just glad 'the kid ate'. but after i was 13 i was gradually getting bigger.
in general apprereance nobody would come upto me, or even think that i'm 'fat' .
i'm very lput together, my fat is dense, and i'm composed of alot of muscle.
i'm very strong. nobody would ever guess i'm in my 180j's. i'm 5'7.


i'm an emotional eater. i can eat alot. i generally eat really healthy, just the BULK of food is immense. i can eat shredded cabbage with olive oil in measurements of three bowls, and still be hungry.
i used to take qwrestling in high school and thats where my bulk really began to show.
my goal weight is 140-150; what i used to weigh in the beginning of highschool.
i know i grew, that my hips and boobs and butt adjusted themselves, but it almost feels like under all this fat is the real me and i've yet to "unwrap" myself and find out what i really look like.
i know for a fact i have my mother's body type. she's 5'3 115/120. short torso, full B cup, looong legs. she looks great at 39.
i can't wait to see what i'll look like. i just need to work on this. i need to really wan this. i've tried so many times.
all the workouts and all the diets and jenny craig and fitness camp....