Even being big I usde to have a life. I was a metalhead, into bar hoping, chain smoking, and a moshpitting free spirit. But since i worked as a right hand to my dad's business, work became life. All day i sit in a desk and type at my computer, or talk on the phone. Work is very mundane, but very stressfull during deadlines. im used to it. But its another excuse not to have any diet or exercise. Work takes most of my time and mind. If i do have free time, im too tired to have fun with friends and i just waste away life watching tv. I DONT WANT TO BE A LOSER ANYMORE.

Its my dream to go to South Korea, Japan or Paris in this lifetime (hopefully visit one place before i turn 28), and see and do things i only see on tv/movies. I dont know what my future would be or how i really want it to be , but the thought of traveling to those places is what keeps me going. I already saved enought for 1 trip, but im embarrased to book a plane ticket. I might not fit one seat and have the embarrasment of paying for two. also I cant walk beyond 2 blocks. If i go anywhere further i gotta have a ride taking me there. I dont wanna ruin my trip if i go looking this big and have everybody freakin looking at me all the freakin time. So i plan to be fit, loose the excess weight, and emotional baggage that comes with it. I need to get off my ass , do what i have to do.

I quit smoking (since May 2009). Drinks occasionaly. Learning Korean & Japanese on spare time. Music is my life. I cant live without water and music. I would like to have more friends. Im a bit of antisocial. I only have a few crazy but true friends. I hope to find some here too. Support from other people like me would be a great help.

"LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT." So make it as beautiful as you can.